epiphany
noun
\i-pi-fe-ne\
2: an appearance or manifestation especially of a divine being.
3 a (3): an illuminated discovery, realization, or disclosure.
Ah, another New Year. The bittersweet end to a season of fun, family and holidays. Like most of us, this is the time of year I look back in retrospect, at everything that I have experienced over the last twelve months.
This was an amazing year for me......I made a major life change by packing up and moving 650 miles away to North Carolina. And in doing that, I was finally able to put closure on a relationship that clearly needed to be over and done with. (For quite a while, I might add.) A new city to discover, a new job with my company, new friends, new place to live, new relationships with newly discovered siblings, and a renewed relationship with my sister (and her family.)
A new me. A fresh start!
Excellent!
I had made the decision to move nine months earlier, and had been waiting for a position to open up with my company. While I waited, my focus and determination grew. I had already picked out places to live, things to do and see, planned the logistics of my move, even put it on my vision board. In my mind, I could see myself already living there, and it made me happy. In March, a job finally became available. ( Got to love the Law of Attraction, baby!) Four weeks later, my belongings were on the way to storage in Raleigh, and my sister and I were in my car, driving north on I75. As we crossed the Florida state line, I breathed a sigh of relief. A new sense of peace started to replace the stress, and I could feel the miles separate me from my life in Florida as we drove.
You could say that took a fair amount of courage, and you would be right. You do have to be a bit brave to break away from what you know, the comfortable, even if you're not in a great place. What you know is better than what you don't know, right?? I think we've all been there at some point in our lives. But how much can you take before you decide to take the risk? To put fear aside and put yourself out there, to go after what you want?
Many of us made resolutions in the last two weeks, hopes and desires for what we want to accomplish in 2011. I have many, and as I listed them it occurred to me - I've made this list before. Why are the same things on this list as last year? And then, a personal epiphany. What if, instead of making a bunch of resolutions that go by the wayside by the first of February, why not make just one: LIVE FEARLESSLY!
So, I am throwing off the bow lines, sailing away from the safe harbor, and leaving fear on the shoreline behind me.
Thank you God for my healing.
Nicole
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~ Mark Twain
