Day two of the seminar and as I knew it would be, a really rough day.
And that's ok.
So many things came up today that I had previously identified and acknowledged, but never allowed myself to fully reconcile. Old pain came alive as if I was experiencing it for the first time. I openly verbalized things that I had only ever said in my own mind, to a room full of people some of whom I had met just yesterday.
I symbolically stepped onto the cliff, looked out over the edge, took a deep breath and jumped straight out into a free fall of searing, raw, terrifying vulnerability.
I showed up and I made myself BE REAL.
And it was worth it.
Today brought more epiphanies, more 'Aha' moments and more opportunities for me to push my boundaries to places I have never gone before.
And I survived. (Inside joke.)
In fact, I did more than survive.
In the middle of that terrifying vulnerability free fall I found my wings and began to fly.
The aching sadness of last night has been replaced with something profoundly different tonight.
The tightness in my chest is gone, the tension in my neck and shoulders is lessened and my heart is wide open.
I have a feeling of peace, calm and a lot more self acceptance.
It's been a good day.
Namaste,
Nico
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